correction. i am being denied happiness so i should steal it no?

My last journal entry was written out of frustration and i have come to find hardly any truth in it either, but rather an attempt at pragmatism, which love doesn't follow.

yes i have trouble communicating in words, but i should more than make up for it in physical contact, and improve.

what wrote earlier has seemed to have failed or not to have mattered in the end. ultimateley it is both in the relationship have to work to keep it from dissipating and slipping by overcoming obstacles together. if only one person is willing to still love and the other isn't then it is hopeless, and the charade should go on any longer with words of assurance or small talk.

btw cobalt was a disaster. no TG women for starters, mostly just a range of quirky men to the flamboyant. there were also GGs, but i didn't have the will to strike up convos. this failed because i am not over someone. i am still in love. i just wish it would be either returned or crushed, so i can dig myself out of the whole through another emotion.